Welcome to the forums BoomerMudcat!

I'm sorry you're feeling so crappy. No worries, vent away. That's why we're here. Depression sucks. It also lies. And can feel like it will go on forever, but it won't. It can be so hard to do things, but try to break things down into small components, say 5 minutes. Even little things can give you *some* sense of accomplishment, which can be hard to come by when depressed.

Hoping for you that it abates soon.