Sitting on my couch with my youngest in my lap...lost in music from my headphones. I’m drowning from conflicting thoughts. The turmoil is literally making me sick to my stomach. Am I sick or is this spiritual? Should I take meds or should I not? I am obsessed about it. And my pdoc was gentle with me on the phone as I was 100% honest with her but I don’t know if I should listen to her. She told me if I go off my meds I will end up in the hospital but will I really belong there? I feel like this medicine is stunting my faith and taking my freedom. I’m afraid also.