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Originally Posted by cashart10
Sitting on my couch with my youngest in my lap...lost in music from my headphones. I’m drowning from conflicting thoughts. The turmoil is literally making me sick to my stomach. Am I sick or is this spiritual? Should I take meds or should I not? I am obsessed about it. And my pdoc was gentle with me on the phone as I was 100% honest with her but I don’t know if I should listen to her. She told me if I go off my meds I will end up in the hospital but will I really belong there? I feel like this medicine is stunting my faith and taking my freedom. I’m afraid also.
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I think you should listen to your pdoc. S/he is only trying to help and is the most qualified to do so. Your fears of medications are that, only fears, not reality. It is probably true that you will end up in hospital if you don’t listen to your pdoc and I know how disruptive and difficult that can be for you. God can work through you on and off meds in the same way. How could he not, he is supremely powerful. I’m sure he wouldn’t want you to suffer.
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