Hurt my hamstring yesterday doing yoga. Frustrating as mild, brief exercise helps my Fibromyalgia. Late yesterday afternoon I went down to the beach for a swim, forgetting about my hamstring. I couldn’t use my legs so had to swim solely with my arms. Lol. Getting home was a painful experience. Think I might go to the pharmacy to see what I can do to increase recovery time.

Saw my T yesterday. I was at the verge of tears most of the session, which is unlike me. It seems I might not be up to university. The series of horror episodes, that ended in a five month psychotic mixed episode, have taken their toll on me. Even my T said it was horrific. Starting university so soon after such experiences is like jumping parallel universes. It is jolting and unsettling.

I am going to try going to university the next week but honestly doubt I’ll make it. I am empty and broken. Traumatised to the max. I think I will do my own projects at home that will help me recover. I need to keep busy and productive. I am also mildly depressed and terrified I will fall into another deep episode again. I’m trying to be positive but it’s tough when that has been my past experience almost every time.