Anxiety is through the roof. Been cashier training last 3 days. It is NOT sinking in. At ALL. And I feel totally overwhelmed. Been choked up all night, knowing we will be dealing with actual customers tomorrow. I KNOW I will end up in tears. It's been hard not to cry during the training(!) I am so very much looking for a new job. I simply cannot handle this one. I don't even want to get out of bed. My mood sucks. I'm frustrated beyond words and feel like a trapped animal. I want to just walk SOOOOO badly, but no income is a no-go.

Holding back tears right now on the bus. I've made a HUGE mistake.

I'll be packing some xanax tomorrow, that's for sure.

FML

Edited to add-- ****. In the midst of crying myself to sleep, I remembered I have a nerve conduction test in the morning beforehand. If you've never had one, they're rather painful. I don't even want tomorrow to come. It is too much.