I don't get most of what you wrote, even though it is so intriguing.

Do you hate sex or do you hate the fact that you wont be having it until you turn 24?

Why do you have to control you gf's mind when it comes to sex?

If sex is such a big deal and a source of stress for you, then at least you know what you gotta work on, if you see a therapist.

If youre not seeing one, though, I'd reccomend that you do.

:-)

pro safe sex