Started to spiral last night. I need to kick it in the pants, I need to remind myself this is ridiculous at this point. YOU no longer care, so I need to stop as well. I know you've moved on and you barely think of me, if at all.... it sucks but it's facts. I am glad though that my thoughts of you are lessening. I know my connection I felt with you has faded. In some ways it's like you never were. I feel often like I was just imagining things.

I don't like sharing things with baby T. That is stuff you should know, not him. I wish so bad I could see you again though, just to see if you have forgotten me. Just to see if you are ok and happy. I feel like if I TRULY knew all that, I could move on much easier. I miss you so much still though and I hate that. This madness has to stop.