apologies are like gifts.....some are welcome & accepted others not so much. you can't make a person accept it. best I can say is …..you tried. people grow, adapt, move on. it's likely you might have as well. you can't make someone like you. you have to like yourself first. get comfortable with you & then things might change.

don't waste your time worrying if someone talks behind your back. if they do? not much you can do to stop them. if they don't, it's wasted time worrying. either way it is something you have no control over.

in some ways you are doing the exact thing you are worrying about...talking behind people's backs. see, it happens to everyone. just make peace with yourself and leave it in your past.