I've seen my exT today. it didnt help much (nothing does) but i was happy to se him. he said he is proud of me for what i have achieved in these years. i said im not proud and i dont feel good about myself. that whatever i have achieved is for a facade and getting a real job and a flat changed nothing about how i feel about myself, but i was happy to hear that from him and to hear he thinks of me often. he also said to call/text him if i need it.

anyway, what really helps is PC (again, thank you! ). its always here when i need it. when i come back from work…

on the other hand, i count the seconds (literally) at work.its hard to work so much when you dont like your job.

im glad the week is almost over, even if i have a work-related course on saturday this week. but only 1 day at work for this week. i can do it. 1 day at work. i hope saturday goes by without much effort…

white noise is helping a lot too.