Those I do have, long lasting ones, kind of just accept I disappear from the face of the Earth.. often. Either phase I go through I tend to detach from the world in general. Depression causes me to not even be able to send a text back to someone. My highs have me so involved in other things I lose track. That's one of my biggest issues I guess -- not many stay constant in my life. I also will go months without talking to someone when I'm angry because well -- one of the two phases hit and I'm OK just not dealing with it.

It's part of personality too, I guess. I currently have my mom, and one friend that I talk to, occasionally. I don't talk with my siblings, I don't interact outside of my home. I'm kinda weird about it I guess.


Does anyone else have a hard time keeping friends, for whatever reason? People seem to really like me, and be drawn to me.. but I can't make 'em stay when I don't put energy into it. But a lot of times I feel I cant .