I can relate. I have a very easy time making friends or at least falling in with a group of people that I like, but for whatever reason when it comes to maintaining those friendships, I can't be asked to. It's not that I don't like them, far from it, but I'm just... elsewhere. Too low to be motivated or too high to be any kind of good close friend. It doesn't help that most of my closest friends have already started the first day of the rest of their lives and I'm still stuck trying to finish my degree.
I try to enjoy the company of the people who do cross my path, but it's still isolating. Lonely.
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"I must not fear.
Fear is the mind-killer.
Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
I will face my fear.
I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
And when it has gone past, I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain."
-Litany Against Fear (Dune)
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