I Think you’re very brave as well, very strong to want to confront your core issues. From what little I understand of ptsd, it is recommended to revisit things and thereby defuse the fears. I know 1 person in Iraq who I did meet and 2 people on another forum who have ptsd so aside from caring about you deeply, I will also be rooting for you as inspiration for my friends. My therapist took training in EMDR, the light therapy for trauma and I believe that is also based on facing things. It’s tough juggling therapists, but again, I think you are right to go with your feelings on that. You are being so bold and so strong on this that I will try to be as brave in trying to choose one path among many in reducing my hypomania and mixed episodes. Stressors, begone!