Had a very busy day today. Didn’t have IOP because I saw my t and insurance won’t cover both on the same day. Because of that I was able to sleep in. The kids were out of school because the teachers in our state are on a mini strike (kind of) due to screwy legislature and my husband is always off on thurs so we went out to lunch and spent the day together after my appt. We were in the car a lot though because we had a lot of errands to run. I have to admit spending the day with them made me less anxious and made my day better. I hope tomorrow is the same but I doubt it. I’m already feeling low and lost in my head again. My pdoc submitted a letter to confirm my continuous leave and listed my return to work date as April 8th. Apparently that is the Monday after spring break and she doesn’t want me going back before then. 🤷*♀️ The women I work with will not be happy with that and my mom will question it. I guess I’ll just have to tell her. But, like everyone keeps saying, the treatment is for me. No one else.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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