Had therapy after work, then went to my friend's house for her birthday and we made dinner and cake. Therapy was pretty good, I mostly rambled about how confusing my brain and thoughts are, my recent obsessive thoughts, and admitted I am having some issues trusting people. I am not totally paranoid or anything, but I can just tell my thinking feels off from where it should be. This time she said she wanted to start seeing me every week, so starting in 2 weeks I have a fixed weekly appointment. I am wondering if that's a sign she does not think I am doing well, since usually she just asks how it was for me and if I want to schedule another appointment or not. Either way I glad about it, because they have been spaced out and it's taking too long to make any progress or figure out what is going on. And, although things are off in my mind, I am doing a really good job of taking care of myself and doing what I need to anyways, so I am not really unstable in that sense. Like I am going to be safe and keep functioning I am just struggling and really stuck in my head so if that could end it would be great.
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