I had my first major depressive episode about 6 months ago. It was absolutely awful. I felt like I couldn't do anything. I just cried and wanted to sleep constantly. I had very little energy or motivation and so much sadness and crying. I was barely functioning. I started therapy and antidepressants and started feeling so much better. I'm still going to therapy and taking antidepressants, but I'm starting to feel the low energy, no motivation and sadness creeping back in. Prior to this past year I had never experienced depressive episodes. I'm wondering why now in my 40s and why it's coming back again. Is this likely a pattern I'm going to experience moving forward? Thank you.