I know my sadness is becoming old news, but it stays the same with me. My landlord has forgotten (oopsy) about the eviction, I knew she'd find away to give us more time. She knows how hard we work. I'll be caught up by next month, but...all other bills are suffering majorly. I ain't worried about that right now though, just one thing at a time.

I've gotten so down on myself and stressed to the max. It's effecting all of us. My little boy is having a hard time at preschool, his teacher told me he's been very emotional and cries alot. My little girl has been peeing on herself alot lately. I'm not sure if that's due to emotion or because toddlers occasionally back track on potty training.

My job is sucky. I work with much older women then myself and they give me hard time constantly. I think they are jealous or something...a young buck has walked on their territory. Yesterday I asked if they had ever worked with scheduling, maybe setting a schedule because they are so varied. One of the old ladies got really %#@&#! and said "Desirae, you're lucky you even got hired, the old manager wouldn't have hired you". When I asked her why she said it was because of my college and I have kids. Can they discriminate against students and parents like that??? %#@&#!, they're lucky I work for them...I'm a hard worker, I bust my *** for them.

I plan on applying at my sons preschool as a teachers assistant. It's a major pay cut...but I'll be with my kids, no daycare issues, and it's literally with in walking distance..no gas issues.

I applied for food assistance but still have not heard anything about my case. I call everyday, asking to speak to my case worker and I get nothing but a machine and no returned call. If we got our food assistance then we'd get through this, we really would. I know damn well we qualify, or did during the work less gap.....shouldn't we e reimbursed?

This stress has taken it's toll on me. I'm losing weight and never sleeping, never eating. I haven't talked to my friends in along time. I feel lonely.