Another post. Sorry for the frequency but it is helping me gather my thoughts. Today was a good day. It is 11.30pm and I hope to sleep soon. My mind keeps running over my life looking for patterns and clues so I can make the wisest decision moving forward. Think I’m obsessing a bit though. Tonight a close friend I hardly get to see came for dinner. It was wonderful. I rarely have visitors and we got to catch up on so much.

I wept when she left. Not over her leaving but over the grief and loss at what to do going forwards. Now, listening to Tori Amos, I feel peace. My life will be much different to the hopes and plans I had. Still, I am beginning to see a new path ahead of me, Bipolar with me still but now covered in acceptance. I’m still floating between my old and new lives, but in time I will become aware of my new life.