I've tried distracting myself from waiting for this phone call. It is not working. I just feel helpless just sitting here waiting. Why can't providers understand what it's like waiting for a response back? This is one of the few days where I miss working because there was distraction at work sometimes. I'm trying to get better to the point where I can be a productive member of society again by at least working part time but it's like nobody cares to help or if they do help, it's only to get me back to stable.