I'm feeling very depressed today. I was kind of suicidal last night, some of the thoughts are still hanging on, but I don't feel as much drive to act on them today. Things are going to get better, I have insurance again so I can go back to 2x a month with my therapist, and I just got an appointment with a prescriber for the week after next. But right now it's hard not to focus on the bad. I'm just isolating today and trying to avoid everyone.