I'm not really good at making these posts, but I talked to a member on here about it so I decided to make it anyways.

I try really hard on PC to be what I'm not- to be upbeat, nice, strong, brave. In trying to act this way, I've lost sight of who I am. I'm not the strong person I think I've led people to think I am. I wanted everyone to like me, so I try to be upbeat and nice. I've talked with people about this, and I think by trying to please people and make people like me, I've been acting fake. I've been fake happy, fake strong.

I'm not as strong as people seem to think I am, and honestly, I'm terrified of everyone here (no offense, I'm scared easily). I've been caught up in trying to make people like me and I haven't been true to my true self. I don't want to be fake- I hate fake people, but I just tried to show myself in a way that didn't let my problems bother me.

I'm sorry I haven't been how I really am, that people have been led to think because of the manner I tried to portray myself as, that I'm strong and good. I'm not. I've been trying to act like how I think I should be, and not how I am.

I'll try to be more like me- just sometimes it's hard to be yourself with people when you hate yourself. Thanks everyone for the support and I'm sorry I've been trying to act like someone I'm not really. I'll try to stay true to my emotions.