I understand what you mean, BipolaRNurse I have never tried it, so unfortunately I don't have a lot of advice to give to you. I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given some great advice in this thread. I'd suggest to try to follow it if you can. Try not to worry too much about it. If there are any problems, you can always contact your Pdoc. It seems like he's pretty knowledgeable, so you'll probably be in good hands. Just be careful and write down all the symptoms you feel if it's necessary and report them to your Pdoc. Perhaps it will work out great for you! Sometimes an high or medium dose fo meds can prove necessary. That doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you, it can just happen. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this! You seem very self-aware. Good for you! Be proud of yourself for that. Just remember that your Pdoc is there to help you and that you can always contact him if you need it. You're definitely not alone in this, as this thread has already shown. Remember that we're here for you if tou need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you