Tonight coming back home from work i stopped by and got myself a pizza. its a reward for getting at the end of the week. i still have the course to attend to tomorrow, but its not work.

for the first time im content with what i have. at the beginning of the week, i never thought i would have felt like this about my home especially, but about my "life" too. i thought it would have taken me months to feel like this. only 1 week. i cant believe it. and i guess my exT helped a lot. hearing him being proud of me did more than i thought. and i finally realized that i needed this. coming back home at night after work and not having to pretend with anyone. not having to talk or listen to anyone. not having someone waiting for me or having someone sleeping with me. i couldnt bear that. im so happy i got myself a pizza tonight!

and PC has helped me more than i can say
thank you everyone for talking with me or just reading me...