Having a pretty good day. Leisurely cleaning house while watching a Monk marathon. Going out to Costco for groceries and Belk for some yellow box flip flops. I love that brand! They last forever and I get lots of compliments. Here in Tennessee with me being hot natured, I wear them practically year round even though I sometimes get strange looks. I have a friend who works there and gets them at a 20% discount.

When I went to see my daughter the other day, it wasn’t a happy, feel good kind of visit. It was me going up there to line up resources and getting her to agree to get help (she did everything I asked). She is usually such a loving, thoughtful person but she has deteriorated with the depression. I felt unwelcome, unappreciated and uncared for. I did what I strongly felt was necessary as a parent although I was heart broken at how I was received. We’ve always been so close. It felt like I lost a daughter and a friend.

I’ve researched therapists since then who specialize in mood disorders, anxiety disorders and the grief process and I’m going to make an appointment to start working through my feelings so I can A) be there for her and B) not get dragged down in the meantime by her behavior and C) work on building up other areas of my life.

Thanks for letting me get that out. I’ve been hurting since that trip.

Warm wishes to all for a peaceful weekend and hugs to all who need them.

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