Each day, I fear that I have done something wrong. There is a nagging fear that my partner will leave me.
Until recently, I wasn't able to admit that my partner could do his own thing: I wasn't as in control as I thought. Even more so, I can't see past the fact that I am not a burden on my boyfriend. It feels bad to write this, but I often wonder why he stays with me. To me, it seems that people will eventually get tired of me.
I am beginning to deal with this well. Very well compared to where I've been.
I was wondering if anyone struggled with abandonment fears. I feel like a terrible person for having them. Why can't I be like everyone else?
I was wondering if there was anyone else on this forum with Borderline Personality Disorder. How have your romantic relationships been?
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