I am also very worried about you, as I mentioned before. I am glad you will talk to your therapist at least, but you might need to see her sooner than later. Please be honest with her about what you are thinking and what is going on. I have been feeling frightened of some people lately, although not to the degree you are describing. It is really hard to see through, so I do not blame you for not being able to trust people right now. I just wish there was some way we could convince you to get the help you need before this gets out of hand.