I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, tallen01 Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're not a bad person. Anyone can make mistakes. From what you wrote, it seems like you've just wrote to those women and didn't do anything else beyond that. Even though it may have been inappropriate, I don't think your marriage is over yet. I believe you can still work things out with your wife, especially since you seem deeply hurt by all of this. I'd suggest to talk to your wife about this and see how it goes from there if yo haven't already. Hopefully she'll listen to you and understand you. Perhaps you could try couple counselling if she's willing to try. Perhaps you could try individual therapy. Either way, I hope you'll be able to get through this. You seem like a caring person and you deserve a second chance. I hope you'll be given one. Perhaps you'll just need to move on. Sometimes it can happen. I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better for you and your wife soon and I hope you'll be able to talk things through. You're a wonderful person who's just made some mistakes. You deserve to be happy and to get help. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this