Oh Aviza this really sucks. I am so sorry you are not getting the encouragement you deserve.

There are ways of finding some encouragement and even maybe an advocate. Do you have any sort of support group? Do you have a mental health organisations in your community.

I recently had to face a very big fear and I was able to not because everyone in my family and acquaintance network was supportive but rather all the out pouring of encouragement those in my support group gave me. Maybe if you joined a similar group you might find the same sort of encouragement.