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Originally Posted by mote.of.soul
When you're looking forward to seeing the neighborhood cats every time you have to go down the road.
When you greet a moth that flies through the window.
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(Chuckle)
... When you're actually happy to hear the details about someone's trip to the drug store and grocery store.
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Originally Posted by mote.of.soul
When you haven't sent or received a text message or used a phone in over a year.
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Pffft! I can't afford a mobile phone. Welllllll ... I could, but it was either that or piano lessons. The one is a positive thing in my life. The other would never ring and make me more depressed.
But more seriously ...
I'm sorry Emily. I remember that you have some recurring health issues. It's hard enough when you have someone around.
I'm not gainfully employed, which makes me feel terrible. But I have managed to get an activity scheduled each weekday to get me out of the house once a day. So like you, I often slide downhill mentally on weekends and then recover when I see people again (even though I have social anxiety -- it's complicated). Mercifully, I don't have serious physical health issues.
You've also mentioned difficulties with relationships and friendships. I sure hear you on that. I'm still working on those things. But, like you, I at least have some acquaintances. It's not much. For a time, I couldn't even do that. It felt like -- why bother when it never seems to go anywhere? But not even having regular acquaintances was pretty disastrous to my mental health. So I'd recommend the hoary old "one step at a time" and "something is better than nothing" to anyone reading this.
(okay ... long enough post ... but, hey -- it's the weekend -- I'm bored and lonely
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