I haven't had success making new friends. My life changes too rapidly to be around anyone long or often enough. Even if I were, I don't connect or relate to other people. I don't trust most of them and rarely do I feel comfortable around them (unless I have actually spent a lot of time around them). I always feel like I have to completely censor myself and turn off my personality to be "acceptable". I know I can't be myself and be who I identify as because that's a major reason I've lost all close friendships/relationships. Hell, I'm way more of an extrovert, but I don't make friends. If I've lost people because I'm queer and they think it's wrong or don't believe me, then how can I ever be myself around people? Is it only "normal" people who are able to make friends? Hell, there's a good LGBT community where I live and still, I'm on the outside looking in...their events aren't often enough to build a rapport with them and I often can't go because of the weather or I have another obligation.

What "friends" I've made have just used me. There is no equal exchange. There is no support, just I can complete a task they need done. That's all I'm good for.