I feel alone and slightly psychotic =[

The invega injection is making my grey matter deteriorate slower and tangling with new genetic code in the matter of the cells for government controlled reality putting me in the box so I don't connect with the realm.

Oh well.. Nothing I can do about it but take risks... that I'm not willing to take.. to jump into the unknown or smoke cigarettes but to exist is the point to live and life can be worth living but also worth dying FOR under a god but we're just monkeys.. geniuses everyone is.. but also stupider than the animals we eat..