A little about me and just venting😞😞😞😥👎👎... I am now 68 all alone due to being an only child 💩💔💔💔with zero relatives. My mom and dad were 55 & 39 when i was born. Their siblings were estranged 💔💔they are all dead too 😇😇😒😒and also didnt have kids. I live in the south and this is so strange😝😝 to everyone. They see me as an outcast or weird😭😭 They including T think i have done something to estrange family. I tell them didnt have them in the first place but somehow they still see it as my fault😞😞

I have tried unsuccessfully to get friends but no success😭😭 Now i have just resigned myself to being alone.

I have had a mental health diagnosis since age 16.

I have finally received the correct treatment. My brain keeps going back to how many life long mistakes i have made and it wont let up. Dont get me wrong my life is not better. I am still all alone. If i had received this treatment when i was 16 my life would be totally different.

I. Keep trying to get my mind to shut up on an hourly basis but it doesnt work. I try to forgive myself and let it all go but still the same. I cant get rid of these thoughts or my aloneness. Wish i could feel happy about being alone 24/7 days a week. I go to all types of functions but nothing. I am just weird and people run away. T have no idea how to help. I have been in therapy with many different T for 32 years.