I wrote this on reddit (I plan to start my meditation journey for real);

"I'm not quite sure the right way to meditate. I've been doing guided meditation a few months ago because I was having panic attacks and I wanted to see more spiritually after a bad shroom trip. I talked to my therapist today about the trauma in the psych ward that caused the bad shroom trip and I just want to relax later.

I'm going to just sit there in silence this time, think and let my thoughts come and go and observe them for 10 minutes. Is that how I meditate? Can someone please give me some tips on how to meditate? I wish I could properly understand.

The best that I've ever came close to meditation is when drifting into sleep. I was researching beta and theta waves and stuff like that.. interesting..

My thought pattern is that of a shroom.. constant chain of thoughts that goes on forever through infinite energy even after I die.. and become the people that are reading this.. However they care about reading this.. I'll stop typing now and just do it .. but later.. I want to listen to some music first because I'm addicted to music.. Need music fix.. I used to be addicted to everything.. tried 46 different drugs.. But spirituality made me be less addicted.. although I enjoy things less or take everything for granted or more specifically don't appreciate things like food, sex, sleep.. so yeah..

Thanks for any comments much appreciated love peace =] Btw do you think I should to guided meditation for a while first or just meditate without knowing what to do? Idk soz ok bye I'll see you in the comments my friends..."

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"I just attempted to meditate for 10 minutes. I set a timer. Lots of thoughts. I realize that I put myself into thought patterns where I imagine myself in situations and what I'd say to people to prepare myself for scenarios before they even happen. I notice that this is anxiety.. but all my thoughts are is anxiety half the time.. I feel like this is a good thing though.. I like how I think.. I repeat thoughts over and over again until they feel perfect to me.. I think I should just practice letting go of these repetitive thoughts and move on to the next pattern.. but I'm afraid of not having insight to reassure myself.. I'm medicated for psychosis so I need insight to keep me sane.. I believe my insight is valuable to me.. and I feel good when I become these stories of the future and past that I make for myself.. live in the moment? I really can't do that..

But I guess meditation lets people think anxious thoughts so they get them sorted out so they can make way for better and new thoughts during the time that they're not meditating? idk"