Come on, you can't be THAT nasty.
I'm telling you: when people get near to you you are scared that they may disappoint you, or let you down latrer, so you test them by inflicting frustration, you want to challege them to make sure they really care for you. This may seem twisted but happens. I have a friend that behaves like that becasue of her depression. I can't be turned down simply becasue I know how it works and why seh is so obnoxious. I just can't be bothered
So just search for people who KNOW and understand what depression is, you will find that they are immune to your poison.

Good luck!