Well I retracted my statement. I've redone a pros and cons list. I felt I was looking a gift horse in the mouth. My mom wants me to stay. It is mutually beneficial. Financially we are both better off. Emotionally I'm much better off. The thought of being alone in that apartment was really getting to me. My best friend reminded me being alone is a trigger. She supports either decision. She just helps me think it through. My support team will be disappointed but I feel happier. I told mom I'm choosing to live here, I don't have to anymore.