I am not 68 but I am the same. I had older parents and they are dead. I feel like my life was broken because while I should have been out having fun and meeting men I was taking care of the parents. I assumed I would be able to do that when I got older but turns out.. no. Everyone is now sitting round married and raising their kids. Also, most of them are dealing with the older parents.

So there is no one to meet as a friend or as a romantic partner.

I also work full time and am usually too tired at the end of the day to too much.

I have a sister but she is married and straight up useless. She wants to be my friend only in so far as I do work for her. I have a nephew but I largely stay away because if anything ever happened I would never hear the end of it. He is HER thing, not mine. I am only available to purchase gifts.

I am currently wondering *strongly* if it is time to quit my job, go to a cheaper cost of living place, change my name and just have fun.