I hate when you want to make an adult decision but you can't without someone else's ok.

I have been speaking to a woman who is wanting to give away her dog and while it's not my top choice on a dog (I wanted a special needs husky mix) I really love this breed and he's got shyness issues which is my favorite thing as a trainer to work through.

I can't just get it though without my brother, whom I live with's ok and my mom's because I work in her home 5 days a week and take my dog with me. Neither have said anything yet. In December everyone was ok with me wanting a second dog but now it seems different.

My brother suddenly wants a dog of his own and I'm just unsure. It really sucks because this would help me so much with healing and moving on. I realize that someday I could have a special needs dog but with the mental state I'm in these days, it's not the best for me. I need a younger dog who I can train to do therapy dog work with again.

I may still meet him tomorrow but I'm just really bummed that I've no idea if I can, it makes me feel like I child having to wait on other people's ok. I really need to get looking at places of my own again and hopefully move out by summer