I have really cleaned more today and I threw somethings away and will give some things away. I am not in my head today. I love the site you suggested. I am actively participating and I learned something. I don't know how to look at data statistically speaking, and there probably not enough of it, but I noticed that a lot of people with social anxiety have a B12 deficiency. I know there may or may not be a correlation, but it really interested me. I feel like myself today. I am not worried about the therapeutic relationship at all. I have been getting more sleep and I have been walking and I feel SOOOOO much better. I really think doing what I did in regard to work was the only answer. I am kind of feeling an excitement/joy about what I will be doing next. I have no idea, but just fathoming that my life doesn't have to be so excruciating gives me hope. I had lost all hope. And now I feel hopeful.