I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, dancinglady I'm so sorry you're feeling so lonely. Everyone else has already gave you some great advice so I'll try not to repeat it too much. Do you have any hobbies? What do you like to do in your free time? Hobbies are a good way to fight loneliness. Perhaps you coul try to join some clubs or social activities based around your interests to meet people similar to you, if you haven't already. Perhaps you could try some websites like meetup.com to meet with some new people near you. I'm so sorry, it's hard to be alone. I hope you'll be able to meet someone who will truly love you and care about you for who you are. You don't deserve to suffer like this. You're a wonderful person. I hope you'll be able to find the right T for you as well. Don't give up hope! Keep looking. I know it's hard, but there are good therapists out there. I hope you'll be able to find the right one for you. Please don't give up. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We won't abandon you. We won't jusge you. I promise you that. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this