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Old Mar 10, 2019, 03:46 PM
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My boss gave me an ultimatum, either come into work on time of start to work part time, either way he had a business to run and needed order to plan out his schedule.

I had to accept my hypomania and begin to fix my hypomania by way of benzos and upping my anti psychotics. This sleeplessness didn't occur until I stopped taking my mood stabilizer, but the mood stabilizer gave me urinary retention and I had to get off it and rely solely on AP's and Bezos. Whie trying to fidx all of this I had to sleep every other day. It was one of the most miserable times of my life trying to fix my sleep issue, but I only started to fix it when I had to accept I had hypomania.

FOr a short term fix, benzos and Benadryl worked, but anti psychotics and mood stabilizers are the long term fix.


Maybe I need to meditate?

Is it worth being on the moodstabilizer I'm on if I don't feel euphoria anymore? That was my happiness, it made me feel like I had a gift, it would come in rushes and I miss it so much. It made me feel amazing and connected to God and wanting to learn about everything. Maybe this is normal and it just feels really bad to me, I'm used to feeling electrically happy, so intense, physically better than getting high on drugs. It's gone though
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Schizoaffective disorder Bipolar type
PTSD
Social Anxiety Disorder
Anorexia Binge/Purge type
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