I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, mulan I completely agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given some great advice in this thread. I'd suggest to try to follow it if you can. I'm sure many people can relate to what you wrote here, especially here on PC. You're definitely not alone in this. It sucks to be lonely. You're certainly not alone here. We all love you here. We all care about you here. I'm so sorry. Do you have any hobbies? What do you like to do in your free time? Anything that may help you fight the loneliness for a little while. Also, try to keep reaching out to your colleagues if you can. Perhaps you'll be able to spend some time with them! I'm so sorry you haven't received the love and support that you needed and deserved from your family. It's hard when we're not loved by the people who are the closest to us. Please don't give up. start working on yourself if you can. Self-love and self-value begins from within ourselves. Try to work on that if you can. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with you feelings. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else does. Don't worry, I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this