Thanks for all the love in this thread. I trully appreciated it all, specially with what everyone is going through in their lifes.
I know I am good, but I dont know I am good! I totally need validation in life! I know I am smart and sensitive and funny, but I just need people to tell me that and soon after I forget it. I know I have qualities but I still don't like myself. Does that make sense? I am in therapy with a therapist I think is good and I like. She is going through schema therapy in next sessions. I totally have a lot of unresolved issues.
Another thing I am not is a quiter. (Am I?)
I don't like to remember my past. I hugged my father a lot, but he seemed so distante. And the beating...and when I went to bed crying in silence wondering why nobody loved me and wishing I could run away from home, but I couldnt.
Therapy will help me now that medication lifted part of my depression.
After all this years, after all the fear and the embarasement I have gain a little of myself and I want my all self.
I want the me that has passions at that isnt afraid to love and feel loved.