Probably the stupidest thing of all ok it is the stupidest is that I am doing this to myself by not calling you. H cracked a joke last night that I made it past his "over" of 10 days (it's been 24 but who's counting)(me evidently). I have this feeling that you'll be disappointed in me if I tell you we've decided together that we want to make our marriage work no matter how different it might have to be from before. Perhaps you have already guessed that since I haven't called assuming you have even thought about me of course. Oh hell. Why couldn't you have just acknowledged my response?! Would it really have been such a bad thing?! For Pete's sake. Grrr. Why can't I let this go? It's so stupid.