I got a call today from my step dad. He said he thinks about me every day and misses me. I said that I appreciate him calling even though it was all these months later. I asked if Mom had put him up to calling. He denied it. Then put her on the phone. Of course she put him up to calling because she wanted to call, but she is still playing phone games, and I know it.

She asked how I am and I told her I am getting divorced and have some serious health issues. She said she was no upset to hear about the end of my marriage, and that my health problems were not serious, I am fine. She just denies anything that does not suit her reality.

She said that she can’t stand that there is a war between her daughters and we have to stop it. Again, I told her what happened and how no one has called me, nor I them.

Again, she suggested we do a Skype call and put this to rest. Again, I said I would be willing to do that, but ‘rude’ sister better at least apologize for having hurt my feelings, which she won’t even do. She ‘refuses to be bullied’ into it. Omg. Just too crazy.

I’m sorry if I appear to anyone here as a shallow idiot, but I will not settle for being treated like garbage by my family or by anyone. If someone who is rude (no doubt about it, I have texts to prove it), and they won’t even give an apology at the cost of a life long relationship with a sister— I’m sorry, but that’s just beyond.

So, it was another upsetting phone call from Mom. There aren’t many calls anymore.

And just like last month where we had the same talk about the Skype truce happening. Nothing happened. And no doubt nothing will happen yet again.

It’s just retraumatizing stuff I have to contend with.