Well I actually stayed out of bed today, although it is only 2.15pm. I doubt I will get back to bed. I have been so exhausted. Had a couple of panic attacks, which is unusual for me. I am overwhelmed and making bad decisions because of it. I feel my life falling apart. It terrifies me. I think I am stable Bipolar wise, just PTSD stuff. I know I am in trouble. Free falling. It is beyond my skills to prevent. Seeing my T Wednesday. I am worried he might want me IP due to my out of control emotional state. I have too much to do to be locked up. I have had severe PTSD in the past. It can get much worse than this. I sense it is going to but I really don't care right now.