I apologize for this never ending theme. I struggle with ambivalence about therapy with part of me feeling intrigued and curious about it all and another part of me feeling skeptical about therapy and my therapist. About a month ago I sent a termination email to my T right after he left for vacation and I truly believed that’s what I wanted. But then over the next week while he was away I changed my mind. Now I have an upcoming vacation which I am really looking forward to but I am immensely tempted not to go to my one appointment before my vacation. My reasons include the fact that I sent a couple of emotional emails over the weekend that I don’t know if I want to deal with right now. He always normalizes whatever I say in my emails, but I wouldn’t mind just letting all the emotional drama fade away during my vacation and then start fresh when I return. Besides that, whatever I was feeling over the weekend may have passed. I also feel like I’ve started not thinking about him and the disruption in our therapy schedule and not showing up would allow me to continue that process. If I go, I’m a little worried things might get stirred up right before my vacation and I don’t want that. For whatever it’s worth even though I talk about skipping, I rarely do. I have plenty of reasons for skipping, and I’m wondering if you can help with reasons NOT to skip this one time.