Does anyone else ever want to come on here and talk about your therapy experience, sit down to write, but then it just feels too complicated to try to explain? I have a session today and I don't know what to say to him right now. I had a bit of a breakdown yesterday instigated by my car breaking down. I'm going through a bit of a rough patch lately so it wasn't just the car. We also had a pre-arranged phone call yesterday. There was a tone to his voice and I don't know if it was me being a bother or him feeling helpless/not being able to help, but he wasn't his normal warm self. And I'm so very sensitive to that. He did say something to the effect of he's feeling my hopelessness and that's coming out. He also at one point called himself my "treatment provider", twice in a row. While I know that's technically true, that hurt. It's so impersonal and our relationship, at least for me, doesn't feel that impersonal. I don't know what to tell him today. I feel hurt and alone. We both acknowledged that the phone call wasn't working out very well yesterday. I feel like I've become too open with him and now he just sees that I'm some sort of freakish weirdo.