Maybe so. The thought of going makes me feel almost sick to my stomach although I won’t be able to explain why which is tough and might make me feel worse. And I agree that this ambivalence or “back & forth” has been the main thing my therapy is all about even though it’s not why I initially came to therapy. I’m also not looking forward to the same old discussion about ambivalence. Yep, 17 months later and it’s still there. My T must be so tired of it. It’s messy.