And today is my birthday, what a gift! Though it's a hard road to hoe, I'm doing the best I can. I haven't told my mom yet. My group is helping me remember why I'm doing this, though my cushy life with mom is hard to leave. April 12th I sign the lease, and can move in over the weekend. It's a big change from mom's house. At least I have a bit more time, I thought I'd be moving in two weeks, have a bit more time. Will have to pay mom half rent, though she won't like that. I need to pack.

Debating about ordering a moving kit off Amazon. It's about 50 bucks. But that makes things real official and the wrath of mom is bad. I tried to give her notice, I tried telling her I'm moving. I did retract the move statement but am back on track though I haven't told mom. It's just easier not to deal with the stress. I'm out of the will already, hanging around doesn't help. She never did put me back in. My brother also dangles it around my neck. I really have to learn to be independent on my own.

They talked about moving out of state. I need to stay until my daughter is grown, at least 2 years. So that pushed me more into moving. It's small the thought of living on my own scares me, but group gave me some good suggestions. You gotta start somewhere, and this is a big step down from where I am now but I'm hanging on coattails.

Got a compliment today, was told I look put together. Hope that look lasts when I'm doing it on my own.