My social anxiety is excruciating and people think I am just faking it or something? The admin at work told me I was ruining the flow of things. Why do the only people that think I am okay -- are the ones who understand me. People at work, I don't know what they think. I want to go out on disability. I don't have a choice. Nothing I can do with what I"ve been given. I've not chose this path. I am not respectable, most people DON"T get me. I try so hard and it's all for naught. I wish I was a normal, respectable person. But I'm not. I am going to take an Ativan.