I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Copia I'm not sure how it works there where you live in Slovakia, but I believe it is your right to go to the hospital and ask to go IP if that's what you want or if you're feeling suicidal. I'm so sorry you're not getting the help and support that you need and deserve. MI is already hard to deal with by itself, it's even harder when we're not getting any support. What makes you think that your parents don't want you to get help? Did they tell you so? Don't they believe you? I'm so sorry. Do you have a family doctor that you can reach out? What about your teachers? Do you have any friends you can try to contact? What about other family members that may help you? Do you know any? If things get bad, try to call an hotline if you can. Perhaps you could try to get to the hospital by yourself or try to contact them through your telephone or your email. If you see a Pdoc, definitely try to contact him/her as well. Are you taking any meds currently? I feel like they may really help you right now. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. You don't deserve to suffer at all. I hope things will get better soon for you. Please don't give up. You're a wonderful person, Copia. Stay strong, Copia. Stay safe and take care of yourself. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Copia